this fase is called the I.A.O.isis,aphopis.osiris.The Egypten initiation within egypten magic,within the hermetic system.The isis fas...the initiated person is feeling very high and wonderful everything is flowing and your understand the tru nature in everything,you are enlightened...but suddenly things of the oposite starts to happen,you are falling....fear and depression is starting to apear ..you are in aphopis fas...and are meeting the guard on the door stock.Life , death and resurection is what initiadtion is all about....every initiation is a little death and every time you go higher in grades you come closer to the whole .As to our tradition in christian mysteri...isis,apophis,osiris,....would be mother the father and the son....